Pain

Getting a new dog wasn´t how I thought it would be. I thought it would be pure joy, relief and a remedy for the loss of Miss Doberman. But as soon as I decided to buy this dog I was filled with a feeling of guilt and I can´t seem to get rid of it. I miss Miss Doberman so much! She can never be replaced, and I´m not trying to replace her. I just wanna have a dog in my home.

I can´t seem to get close to Echo. My heart won´t open up to her. She is lying next to me right now, sound asleep. I can feel her warm body next to me. She is breathing heavily. Sometimes she snores. Totally relaxed. I should love her. She is a great dog. Smart and kind. Only a baby. She deserves to be loved.

So now I feel twice as guilty and ashamed.... Chandra understands how I feel. She tells me this feeling of guilt and loss will pass. I will come to love Echo and feel close to her. Everything will be all right. Wize cat.