I am getting married!

Yeah right, haha!

The thing is that my Angel and I took our fantasy almost to the limit yesterday. Before this we have both been very clear on the fact that chemistry might not be right between us IRL. We forgot all of that yesterday...

It all started early in the day, when I told him the love story of this couple I know. The first time they met he was 14 and she was his 22 year old teacher. He decided right then that she was the woman he wanted to marry. Of course nothing happened then, and years went by without them meeting, although he was her little sisters best friend. So, one day when he was 21 the two sisters were going out for a drink, and he tagged along. She was living with a girl then, beliving she had become a lesbian. Well, magic happened that night and she fell for him just as hard as he fell for her 7 years earlier. Things sped along from that night, she broke up with er girlfriend and moved in with her new love. Now they are married and have a lovely little girl. And truly, I have never ever seen a couple as happy as them.

Strange enough this romantic story didn´t make my Angel feel good. Instead he started brooding over the fact that that was not our story, and that it wasnt us that was happily married with kids. After several approaches to try cheering him up, I finally managed it when I said that I make my own destiny and it is never too late to find love.

I am not really sure how things
went from there to almost being married before we´ve even met, but I know we were by the expressions "old chickens give the best soup" and MILF (Mother(s) I´d Like to Fuck). Me being the old chicken and the MILF of course, haha! Anyways, we started toying with the idea of being married, where to have the ceremony and what to call our first child. (The ruins at Hovedøya, and if a boy Ravn, if a girl Asuka (we´ll have to discuss Asuka - I am not sure about that one.))

Talking like that felt good. It felt real somehow. Isn´t that weird? How can a make believe relationship with a guy on internet feel more real than some actual relationships I´ve had...?

Gaaah, I am turning in to mush!

Just before I logged off to get some sleep (it was five in the morning by then...) we agreed that him being an angel and me being a star - two celestial beings on this planet - we must belong together. Right?

I am going to stop now... Just one more thing. One thing that was actually very hard yesterday was seing on his face the same frustration and longing that I felt.
Oh well, five weeks to go - and counting...