While you listen to this song you can read about my latest obsession.
I am well and truly obsessed. How long I have been obsessed I am not sure about. At least one month. Maybe two. It all started when this guy sent me a friend request in facebook. He added me because he saw that I was a member of Regnskogsfondets pages on fb. For a while we only talked about the rainforest, the environment, the future of the planet and heavy stuff like that. But slowly we got more personal, started talking about our backgrounds and getting to know each other. We startet to chat on skype, with camera. I started to see the glow in his dark brown eyes. His high cheekbones. How he pressed his lips together when he was frustrated about something. And then those eyes seemed to catch fire when he looked at me. I was well and truly lost by then.
My own personal fantasy. Like the crushes I have had on James Hetfield or Johnny Depp... Only I could talk to Miguel. Beautiful Miguel Angel. My fantasy. My obsession.
Very soon after we started chatting he told me he was coming to norway, he was just waiting for his working permit. An exiting thought, but nothing concrete. Well into the future. But two weeks ago he joyfully told me he got the permit - he is coming to Norway at the end of august. That night I had a nervous breakdown...
I got over the panicky feeling after a couple of days. Now we actually have concrete plans to meet. Some days I am fine with it, some days I am NOT. The days I am fine with it is the days I feel like a very sensual goddess. The days I am not, I remember that he is only 25 and I am actually 32...
Sometimes I sort of envy Annie her Angel. He is not flesh and bone... No unbearable waiting, no silly thoughts about stupid stuff like "maybe he smells bad", "maybe he talks funny" or worse of all "maybe there is no real attraction between us"...
Oooooh, I am tormented....
Sunday, August 8, 2010
My Angel
Posted by Rhiannon at 3:46 PM
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2 comments:
Sounds like a sweet kind of torment, though ;) You've no idea how much I would wish for my Angel to be of flesh and blood. I'm so curious about him! I want to know what he looks like, and - this will sound very out of character - I want to dance with him! Since he came into my life I've become sooo into latin music, and he always wants me to dance whenever I listen to it.
But back to you. I understand why you're nervous, obviously. I'd be a train wreck! But even so, what an adventure! And what if the two of you have just been waiting all your lives to meet each other ;) Exciting, exciting! :)
Haha, and I am scared to death that Angel will wanna dance with me, with his latin moves and my... not so latin and very clumsy moves... Oh shit!
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